Journal
Monday,Jul 27 2009, 02:01:53 AMNormal is Amazing
Most of us tend to think too much about what we don't have and not enough about the good things we do have. I realize that statement sounds trite, but I'm not just talking about abstract ideals. When we forget to be thankful for what we have, we start taking things for granted. We forget the value of things, and then the way we perceive those things changes. Although the thing itself is still valuable, we see it as normal, plain and uninteresting. When that happens, the things that brought us joy, happiness and contentment become meaningless to us, and our lives become dull and monotonous as the pleasure we found in those simple things is lost.
Sometimes I tell you how wonderful it will be to do regular, everyday things with you, like washing dishes, shopping, or laying in bed beside you and reading. At this point, I'm sure you and I both would be more than happy doing anything and everything together, just to enjoy being together, but do you remember a while ago, when I mentioned something like that, and you told me that passion fades over time? I don't believe that has to happen.
When you and I first fell in love, I set a goal and swore to myself that I would not take you for granted. I can't be certain of what our lives will be like in the future. I don't know what it's like to be married for years. I don't know what difficulties we will face, or what unexpected situations may come, or what disagreements we will have over the years. I can't be certain of what my heart will be like in 15 or 20 years, but I refuse to accept that spending time with you will become plain and uninteresting.
Being thankful actually takes work. Maybe that's why so many people are not naturally thankful. It doesn't just happen by itself. If I am not careful, I could forget how precious it is to spend time with you, but I absolutely do not want to! I don't ever want to lose the simple joy of just being with you. I realize that I am talking about a very long time here. Maybe I don't have the ability to do this all on my own, so I pray about it and ask for help. I ask for God to give me grace to always remember how special and precious you are, and how amazing it is to be your lover.
Even now, I practice what I am saying. Every day, I think of you very, very much...how beautiful your eyes are, and how good it feels when you look at me, how much I want to put my arms around you and kiss you, how wonderful it will be to hold your hand and walk slowly through a market, or how fulfilling it will be to sit accross the table and watch you eat dinner in our own house.
I know that love is much more than feelings, but I don't want to accept that our passion must fade over the years. If anything, every moment I can spend with you 20 years from now will be even more precious, not less. I love you sooooo much, honey. I will always love you, and I hope and pray that my heart will always burn with passion for you. Please be my sweet baby forever. I cherish you. I love you. I love you!