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Dear Aunt Lakshmi,

                                   I hope you're doing better in the hospital today,after last night's shock.I sincerely hope with all my heart that you will be alright.I wanted to talk to you about a serious issue that's been screaming to be thrown out in words,but I didn't have enough pluck to talk to you.

It takes me a lot to say this,but I have to talk to you about the volatile issue of your son's actions.I can understand your pain,dear aunt,I know how much it must hurt to get beaten by your own son,the pride of your life.But watching you get beaten like that,it was too much for me to take,aunt.You see,you might think that I'm an insolent brat who always gets her way with her father,bullies him around &c.You know what?I couldn't agree with you more,I am spoilt,I am a bully and I am callous time and again.But I realize my mistakes soon enough.You know why?It's because of my parents.They have this amazing quality,they listen to me,understand me.They are kindred spirits,and have what it takes to put up with my torment.I am not here to talk about their greatness to you,aunt,I cannot put it in words.I simply felt too much to see Karthik torment you this way.He has his own personal demons,aunt,everyone does.I know that you may not want to listen to an insolent child speak to you like a beatific old woman,but I cannot help but let you know of my feelings.Yes,my dear aunt,my love for you hasn't changed inspite of the way you questioned my results.It hurt for sure,but I still love you,aunt,for you are as dear to me as my own blood.I can't stand the injustice happening to you,for you are a good woman.Your heart is pure,but for some reason the Lord Almighty hasn't been good to you,I understand your anxiety,your love for him as a mother who protects and shields her child from harm,but aunt,isn't he going too far,given the fact that he is an adult now,and can resolve his own problems?

Aunt,I know that he is doing wrong to you,but I also have a feeling that everything can be set right now,better late than never.I think the solution to it all is a quick ear and a reassuring shoulder.I think he's having his personal problems,aunt,and since he cannot vent it out in words,he puts it into his actions.That's dangerous,to you,your family and his wellbeing.No doctor can put an end to it,aunt,I know.I've had similar problems myself,I had a psychiatrist,but he can't help me thinking like I do now,can he?I worked it out myself.I think you can atleast curb Karthik's urges to hit if you just sit down,relax,and with a calm mind and heart,listen to him.It's hard for people like him,I mean schizophreniacs,to just sit down and open out like I usually do.But let me tell you this,it was hard for me too initally.I couldn't find it in myself to open out to my parents,because at that time,they too,weren't used to hearing me out.The breakthrough came with my will.I forced myself to be in their company for a couple of hours,it was torture for me at that time,for the only thing i wanted then was privacy.It took about a month or two for me to realize that they could be jovial,fun,and I relaxed more in their presence.Try the same way with Karthik,I know he isn't as deep thinking as me,but he too,needs a vent of fresh air after his mind has been polluted with stagnant thoughts.Cleanse him only as a mother can,aunt,he needs it,he's vulnerable as a two year old child without you and your love.But let Uncle Prasad also have a say in the matter.He may be soft,but he is rather wise with h is words.Karthik needs sisterly love as well,and I'm sure Cousin Aparna would do the job pretty easily.It just takes some calming down on your part.His part?Oh well,if you're patient enough in your quest,I'm sure he will calm down eventually.

Oh my dear aunt,I wish with all my heart that life will be better for you,for I cannot see that deathly pallor on your face,it pains me to see your ache,for I love you like my second mother,even if you might shun me.My father burns with the anger of having seen you hurt,and his love happens to be a brotherly love for you alone.But I want to extend the arms of sympathy for all of you,because you are the nearest family to me.My heart tells me of the pain you feel,and I want to hold you all till it goes away,for it goes without saying that:

Happiness is having a large, loving, caring, close-knit family in another city. -- George Burns

And as a mother's heart,I know you feel a lot.

The Great Umbilical
Motherly love is not much use if it expresses itself only as a warm gush of emotion, delicately tinged with pink. It must also be strong, guiding and unselfish. The sweetly sung lullaby; the cool hand on the feverd brow, the Mother's Day smiles and flowers are only a small part of the picture. True mothers have to be made of steel to withstand the difficulties that are sure to beset their children.
- Rachel Billington

God truly be with you,and bless you all the way.

Achingly Yours,

Amru

Adolescence- The immediate thing that strikes anyone on hearing this word is that of hot crushes,flashes of anger,rebelliousness &c.

However,adolescence was not at all what it promised to be,for me as a teenager atleast.I knew I was different from the others,in a deep thinking sense.Haunting dreams proved to be rather irksome,but all of them were chillingly sound.As usual,having such parents who were overconcerned about me,they seemed to think of it as a boyfriend problem.I as such,didn't even have such notions in my head.Instead,chilling dreams of the tsunami,just before it occured,the earthquakes,the growing poverty,was what haunted my mind.It made me rather disillusioned,naturally,I was terrified of the dreams as they hit the nail on the head every time.Criss Angel had some dreams like these too,but I was far too scared to admit the truth of my dreams to anyone.Recently,it had been the shock of the exact image of Mademoiselle Benazir Bhutto's death in my head just two days before the actual incident occured.

I know I wasn't really clairvoyant,and I was a rather deep thinker,for no thoughts of boys,or my personal image or my dresses tugged at me, it was only the world's well being that tweaked my nerve cords.My mother was,and still is,to this day,afraid of me.It isn't very easy on someone when you get the knowledge of your parents being afraid of the very child they'd borne for such a long time.

Off to the psychiatrist, it was,and the funny thing was that I left the psychiatrist flabbergasted and utterly at a loss for words.I distinctly remember his asking me about my interest.I replied it was writing,of,course.He asked me show me some of the thoughts that I meticulously recorded in a little handmade book.I saw his mouth agape when he finished reading the account of my dreams and intuition.I couldn't speak of them to anyone,so I made my confessions on paper.The final verdict was passed,it was that I thought almost 20 years ahead of my own,fragile,tender teenage years.This scared me even more,it isn't very easy on the mind when I saw my parents visibly withdrawing from me,almost shrinking away with fear.The next few months,I started writing in my sleep,yes,writing.I would often fall asleep on my chair,and scrawl quite legibly on paper.No one,to this day,has a sound explanation for that,not even me.

I often feel scared of myself,it's like my mind churns too fast for me to actually comprehend what's actually happening.My parents?Well,they are indifferent to me now,I feel hurt at their seemingly callous behaviour.I know it isn't my fault at the way my brain was designed to be,but I too,am human,and fallible.I do have feelings,bruised too much,thrown about until the pain is so dull,it aches constantly.I just wish someone would atleast try and understand me,I don't ask for much,all I want is someone who can provide me the much needed closure I've been craving for with an intense hunger for the past few years.

Don't be afraid of me,please,I am human too,things work a bit differently for me,that's all.I can't help it,Mom,Dad,I really can't stop my brain from thinking now,can I?I can't cry it all out either,I'm not too lachrymose these days.Open out to me as we did when I was about 10.I just need your love,for I have more than enough to dish out myself.

Will you please hear me out?Just tell me what's wrong,I'd appreciate it if you did.

God Bless,

Amru.

To the Indians,

                      Namaste,and my warm greetings to all of you.I hope you are well.I wish to talk to all of you, of course,keeping the Bangaloreans in mind.I was in the car with my father yesterday, and I happened to come across a particular signal in Bangalore.I don't really remember the name of the road, but I definitely remember the situation right near the signal.We all know that traffic policemen and beggars are abundant around almost every signal in Bangalore, poverty has struck India and pulled her down, but that is not what I wanted to talk about.I saw a beggar, like all,suffering from polio, and he was of course,begging for money.What I didn't realize, was that the man had something to say.Apparently,the man had to "pay" the local policeman, just to stay in that area.I thought it was extreme foolish of the policeman to take a bribe from a poor man, it is the lowliest sin that can be commited by man.it is very much wrong for a man who is trying to buy his daily bread with the money of others, just to pay the local policeman, who should be doing nothing but his duty to the city and the country.It is most disgraceful that such a situation has arisen.Too bad that I did not know who this policeman was,for there were too many around the area, and I knew in my heart, it said that all this was so wrong, it shouldn't be happening around me, all men are bound for equality, but what could I do about it?I know I'm not a philosopher, or a philanthropist, but a hardcore pessimist.I knew I had to urge someone to do something about this, and who better, than the citizens of India themselves?

Please, I beg of you, this is not what equality means.I really want to help this country, and my city as a whole, and I feel that every man should do his duty, and bribery was condemned from the 1950's, but who listens?Remember, this leads to so many other wrong practices, and it has led to our country into dependence on giants like America and Britain.They do have some amount of equality within them, so I think it's only fair that we learn and implement.I beg you, the citizens of India, to rise up, and mutiny against such injustice.It may be a small action on an individualistic part, but on the whole, it will help our mother, India.

Remember this:

Dear World,

                   Here I am,back again, to worry about all those poor little animals in such trouble at the hands of man itself,rather sick to think of,isn't it?Well,I know mine is not an eay job,travelling all the way from America to Australia purely through the strength of my words,this doesn't bother me,as long the animals are safe.From here on, I will continue my petition:

To the Swiss,

                    Greutzi!!The playground of Europe,what a fantastic place to visit!!I always wanted to visit Switzerland.I found something missing,though.Behind the facade of a beautiful scenery,I found that the Canis lupus seems to be missing,of course,I am talking about the Wolf.I found it rather putting off that the very majestic ancestors of our common dogs is so few in number.Twenty years ago I wouldn't have complained,because the wolf was found abundantly.Right now,I have to ask,is it always about AAA bank accounts and money pouring in from tourism for my Swiss friends?What about the poor wolves?Won't you clear them some space in that vast landscape,and provide them vital life,for they are the connecting link from the past to the present.Take care,my friends,we need the wolves.I hope you understand what I am trying to say here.I want them to be back with their howls coursing through the land.Do you?Think about it.

To the Brits,

                  A very good evening to you,chaps.Yes,I am from India,would spark memories of Big Brother, right?Just forget about that for now,for I have a very serious issue to discuss with you.I'm sure you would have seen your backyards often during the rainy season.I am also sure that you would have found little frogs,yes,the Rana Tigrina,leaping about.But tell me,is it fair to kill them just for the sake of it?Do you not recall that it was these very creatures that consumed poisonous insects from our backyards, in a way,to protect us from them?Isn't it time that you live and let live?Be careful,my friends,it would not be good to let something as common as the frog to die out on us,it shows how much we people are encroaching upon Nature's land.I beg you to please,not cringe from saving these tiny little creatures,they are very valuable in their own way too.What do you say?

To the Americans,

                            Greetings from India!America,the land of prosperity,the land of democracy,and the land holding people who are extremely conservation conscious.I congratulate you on all that,but somewhere in the midst of this bustle,I happened to notice that the Californian tiger is rapidly disappearing.I don't want to chide you on this,but I wish to remind you that Time is pouring rapidly against us, and we may find,one day,that this animal is completely wiped out from America.Now you tell me,is that a good thing?I don't think so.And after all,America's all about To the People,By the People and For the People.I think it's high time that you bestow the same rights on the animals living there,too.Aren't I right?

To the Vietnamese,

                              chào buổi tối!!!bạn có khỏe không?I am from India,yes,very close to you guys.I've always wanted to visit Vietnam,but somehow,my heart stopped me from doing so.Do you know why?I shall tell you why.I knew that Vietnam was very famous for the Delacour's Langurs.They are fast receding,aren't they?Now tell me,what is the point of my visiting if I see that these animals are being pushed away from their homeland so cruelly,so brutally?Please,just gather yourselves together,listen to your heart say that what you're doing is wrong,we must make amends together,Time is running out quickly,so hasten,and save the langurs from injustice,let them live in peace and harmony,and so shall you,knowing that they are safe in numbers amongst themselves.Listen to your heart.It is never wrong.

To the rest of the world,

                                    I may not have individually addressed you,but I'm sure that's no excuse for not sheltering the animals,right?Nature made us have voices,to protest and mutiny against injustice, but these poor animals did not have it in their fate to have a voice to express their feelings.We must have pity on them,my friends,and not blindly kill them as a sport or game.Remember what Mufasa said in the Lion King,we are all part of the Circle Of Life,and we must never,ever,break it,or the peace and harmony on this Earth will be broken forever.We may be at the top of the food chain,so it is our responsibility to protect each and every animal under us,right from the tiny mouse to the great whale.Let me remind you of what some famous people said of animal cruelty.

If a group of beings from another planet were to land on Earth - beings who considered themselves as superior to you as you feel yourself to be to other animals - would you concede them the rights over you that you assume over other animals?  ~Attributed to George Bernard Shaw


When a man wants to murder a tiger he calls it sport; when the tiger wants to murder him he calls it ferocity.  ~George Bernard Shaw


The animal shall not be measured by man.  In a world older and more complete than ours, they move finished and complete, gifted with extension of the senses we have lost or never attained, living by voices we shall never hear.  They are not brethren; they are not underlings; they are other nations, caught with ourselves in the net of life and time, fellow prisoners of the splendor and travail of the earth.  ~Henry Beston, The Outermost House, 1928

Remember this forever,and the next time you see an animal in distress,you know who to call,your feelings from your own hearts.God bless you all.

Humbly yours,

Amrutha Varsha

Dear World,

                   Looks like I have to continue my fight for the survival of these innocent little animals.My method is to spread a chain message, for i have a universal voice, through words.I believe that someone, somewhere will elicit a response, however small it may be, but very important for the survival of these mute creatures of Nature.Henceforth, I shall continue addressing some more countries:

To The New Zealanders,

                                       Tena koutou!An unusual greeting perhaps, but I've heard that you people like it when someone uses the traditional Maori language.Anyhow, that's not what I'm interested in right now.If I recall properly, the Kiwi is the national bird of New Zealand,right?I have some news, all the four species of Kiwi birds are on the brink of extinction.Surprising?The little Kiwi, a rare, flightless bird, found within your land, so famous, and yet in such grave danger.I beg of you, please save the little bird.It won't need much space, even though New Zealand is a small island.Use this fact to your advantage, so that you can work in groups to save the Kiwi.Hurry up!!There is not much time left!

To the Pakistanis,

                           Asalaam Alaikum!!You guys are very close to us Indians, so I know pretty much everything about your country's politics, welfare, as well as the flora and fauna thriving there.I must express my concern about the threat being posed to the beautiful Snow Leopard wandering about the mountains of Pakistan.The majesty of the animal lies within its beauty itself.I'm sure that we would regret the absence of such a God given gift, from this Earth.Mashallah, let this animal survive.Please, I will get on my knees to pray to you for the welfare of the leopard.May Allah guide you along your righteousness.

To the Paraguayans,

                             Maitei!!I love Paraguay, such a land of tradition, colour and culture.I love the food of Paraguay, but I have very somber complaints to make.The placid South American Tapir is disappearing so fast.Please see to it that the Paraguayan Government does something about this, the Tapir is a very valuable asset to the already rich biodiversity in the Paraguayan forests, and I'm very sure that if a little caution is taken, the Tapir will regain its original, stable population.Act fast, for Time and Tide wait for no one, not even you, or me.

To the Russians,

                    Добрый вечер!! I have never travelled to Russia, but I do know that you guys are one of the most intelligent people in the world, winning almost every chess championship, not to mention the numerous entries into tennis, and other fields.But that's not why I'm here to talk to you.I am very worried about the Siberian tiger's welfare, as much as IUCN is.Being such intelligent and understanding people, I know that you will realize the danger that the tiger is in, and will not let it go so quickly.I urge you to please, please, save the tiger, it is worth many decades of evolution, and represents one of the most majestic creations of Mother Nature.I hope you understand me, please, act now!!