what is it one should do when they where wrong for so long? What is it that one can do when they have let one of the best things they have ever had go? What can one do when chances are they will never get that thing back? Why must I push people away? Why did I have to push HIM away? Why do I have to regreat things? Why do I have to regreat how I treated him? Why is it I want him back even though I know it will hurt him? Why am I scared to ask for him back? Why can't I move on after two and a half months? What could I ever do to make him understand? Why was I so cold to him?  why is this so hard for me? why can't I seem to love another? why can't I stop thinking about him? Why can't I tell him all this? Why do I want to tell him this? Why don't I want to see him hurting? Do I still love him? Could that be what is wrong with me? Can anyone tell me what to do?