I feel betrayed today. Perhaps I should view things from a different angle. But everything seems pretty bleak to me now.

I should never have trusted her. I should never have made her happy. I should never had treated her like my own life. Perhaps everything is destinied to go wrong between us. I hope not. I love her like my own lover. But when I received that letter from her, had that talk with her, I just feel, so hurt. So disappointed. It was like having a pail of cold water poured over me while I was still in bed. Shock and deception, all combined into one. Something like 3 in 1 milo, haha. Sometimes I wonder if things could have been different. But I thought that she understands. Understands the hurt when you are dumped by the guy you love more than the world. And, in the midst of all my hurt, she kinda slipped away from me. And she lied. I wonder if a person could take so much hurt and deception all in a single shot.