The Tears Finally Appear

I returned from work tonight and found something out that really tore me apart. The guy I was dating supposivedly broke up with me n didn't even tell me. When i got home my new best friend Ashley was here waitin for me, she was gonna sleep over so we went to her house and her sister Emily told me the news, I really didn't want to hear it but its better to tell me than keep it from me, what Emily had told was that this guy was at her house tonight and this guy which i remind you really love told her he was just using me and stayed in the relationship to get anything he needed or want which i already had an idea but didn't want to believe it, i just tore me apart i couldn't stand it. to the fact this morning i saw him and everything was all good we were talking and hanging out like nothing ever went down, i was so happy, Even though it hasnt felt like we have been in a relationship it felt so good too see him i just wanted to cuddle him like a teddy bear. The day he slept over at my house it was so great he told me things that would just make anybody say aww thats so cute omg and i almost fucked him what the fuck was going through my mind. I should have known it from the beginning He swore up and down that he wasn't using me and that he really liked me WTF why i have to fall so in love and just writing this makes me bawl and cry. All i want to know is why goddamn guys think with there penis. Somebody help me!!!! I LOVE YOU DALTON like you will ever read this but the damn world needs to know

Should I let him go?

I have been dating this boy for a lil over a month now, and he is 3 years younger than I am but I really like him....I was friends with him before we starting dating and im really good friends with his sister. But their dad is really strict like majorly strict and they can't do shit. I barely ever see him ever, and when I do it seems like he don't really want the relationship anymore I have asked him a few times if he really wants this relationship to work out and such he always says yes I really do because I really like you and blah blah don't need to hear all the details but yea. I really want it to also. Im just having trouble not seeing him, thinking he doesn't want the relationship to work out or that he has somebody else idk honestly I really don't people tell me to let him go but there's something holding me back from doing that I don't know what it is...all I know is that I really like him and would have never pictured myself as going this far with him he's a freshman in highschool and im a senior is that bad...should I let him go i don't know?!?!?!!?!!?!!?!!? HELP