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Sunday,Jun 22 2008, 07:08:24 PMMy feeling and what i have been up too
to begin with i will tell you about me before you read on:
To begin with i have been to seven schools and i have lived in 4 places amazing right not so anyways i am not the thinist and i am not the fattest girl also i wish that i you no had a boy friend who liked me for me and not breast size or the size of my waste like most boys do that for other girls. I am not the prettieist girl going or the best speller or the most intelligent girl in the world. My life is revolved around the internet, my mates, getting the best grade i can, playing football, trying to find the right guy to be a boyfriend. I have meet many guys just none the sensitive type they all expect you to go on web cam and to as they say have 'online sex'. I wish that i could just get to no a guy that is just sensitive and that is amazing and likes me for me. I am a bubbly person i am easy to talk to i am good at keeping things to my self and i am altogther loveable & caring person
Sunday (first entry)
It is crazy how sometime you feel in love with someone who doesn't care about what you feel or care about they way people feel in general
It is also crazy silly on how the person you like treats you like shit when other people are around but you like them the way that they nare when no one is there. It is also silly how you find it hard to deal with the way that they treat u. like for an example the boy i like tends to hit me and take advantage of me when other people are around.
On to another topic i will be writing every friday to say stuff and jsut to talk about things that i wonna talk about asi find it so easy to babble on. this week for example i have done babysitting and fallen out with the boy i like over many silly little things. This weekend as it is a sunday that i have written it on i have had a ipod docking station brought for me and a brand new camera. i really do love my parents but they do annoy me but telling me to do thid and do that when they know that i will get stuff done no matter what they, they do understand the way i feel when i explan it to them but other then that they just see right through me.
on the topic before right it is hard to tell a boy the way i feel as they just look straight through me and i feel really scared to tell them. the reason they look through me is because of the way i look it is really silly acctually.
friday
this week i have had many mixed feelings as to begin with i was feeling great as my friend and all that were coming back from their geography trip so i was going to see everyone again. Tuesday then rolled around and i was feeling really under the weather and so i had to stay of for three days. Tuesday also brought around the worst arguement with my dad i have in a long time. What caused it was my terrible big sister told my dad that i had had my best mate the guy i like in the house that day and he went up stairs to piss my sister off by opening the door so my dad started having a massive go at me. The only reason why my sister told was because although i was ill i went round getting a load of housework done and she had done nothing so he had ago at her.
Wednesday roled around and i was so bored because my sister told me not to do anything so i went up in to my room and watched agent cody banks because i was that bored and had already watched all my illness chick flick films. when my dad got home from work i had so much fun i was messing around and play fighting it was really fun. So as you can see i had lightened up a bit, this was until Thursday came.
Thursday i had fun in the morning get all the house work done again and then in the afternoon i did dinner. When my dad got home and my best mate called for me the one i like that one yh we had a chat and all that but then his best mate and my 2 best mate came to the door and he asked if i were coming out and then he told me that a girl who was my best mate who now hates me for something so trivia, but he said that she wanted to ask me how do fat people dive and my mood just went right down the drain. so maybe this gives away that i am not thin hense why it is only face photos taken of me. That night i watched the movie spider wick chronicals it was really good.
So Friday today that would happen to be, i had my sponsored walk and i ache all over but i had fun and Natalie had to ditch me because she had taken 3 layers of skin off her anckle and it has bleeding so i was by my self. after this i had to then going baby sitting no that i have to do anything just sit and make sure they don't wake up then cry when they do lol. i still feel that same about love and it isn't going to change even after all the things that have happened but it is all the same and i hope other people will express them selves in this way because i help even if it is just explaining what you have done and how you have felt about it.
The one thing i hate about boys is they always wonna take it too far or they want to show things you don't want to see or do stuff that you want to do and they are never considerate of other peoples feelings.
Third entry
Today will not be friday but i haven't really got much to talk about man i need some insperation as my brain is dying down and fast
If you have any ideas on what to writ please tell me and fast i am going bone dry