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Thursday,Oct 29 2009, 05:35:08 AMMY HEART IS DEAD

         I met this liar here in tokyo. she is sweet young and thoughful. im 15 years older than her. i courted her to her work place until she told me that she loves me too. we decided to live together.she is sweet caring thoughtful. good in bed , almost perfect pertner for me.i feel she really loves me. i gave her all. i helped her family in her country. i gave her nice house and car for her family in her country. we been happy and smooth relationship. i trusted her so much. she have extention of my bank account and credit cards. after few months of happily live together her visa expired.

        she must go back to her country and we planning to get married there. and get her again back here. since then i never heard anything from her. few weeks after she left i recieved notice from the bank. all my money gone. even my credit card reached the maximum limit.all the purchase is from her even the money tranfer. i keep calling her but her number changed. i even tried to locate her house with the help of close friend, but it is already sold. even the car have new owner, i dont have idea where is she..my world was colapsed. i hated myself so much..i even tried to kill myself because i was a fooled and burried to loans . poor as rat. 

           im so lucky there is a friends that gave me strenght to that  burden . they never leave me and even give me moral support and trying to help me in financial needs because all is gone. im poor as rat. i know you knew who you are friends. i will never forget what you did to me. ill bring this to my grave. i will love you all friends for the rest of my life.

         Two days ago i recieve email to this liar ex of mine. she asking money again to be use to her visa to come here and she said sorry of what she did to me. she want me back. after 11 months of leaving me with nothing ? not even a single word, she still have a courage to send me email. .......this is sucks.!!!! i hate you!!!!! i will never forgive you !!!!!!! you will go to hell !!!!! don't ever send me email again !!!!!!! leave me alone !!!!!!!!!!!!!! you got it all nothing left to me !!!!!!!! MY HEART IS DEAD !!!!!!!!!!! YOU'VE KILLED IT !!!

to all readers. i wish you learned something in my experience...never trust anyone . even the special person to you . LOVE STINKS !!!! SO MANY LIAR IN THIS WORLD !!!

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15 hrs agoMay she rot in hell!!!!

prettyrizza
RizzaVerified Zorpian 35, Philippines
OMG!!!! I'm so sorry to know about this story, Ken! And so sorry too to make fun about reviving your dead heart in the forum. I had no idea this is that serious. I'm so sorry, my friend!

9 hrs agoRe: May she rot in hell!!!!

kenjichandesu
kenji 40, Saitama, Japan
its ok ms rizza many in zorpia didnt know. finally u knew. nothing to be sorry i am still alive. still have a chance even its long shot.

6 days ago:)

unlockxanthein
ivyVerified Zorpian 30, General Santos City, Philippines

5 days agoRe: :)

kenjichandesu
kenji 40, Saitama, Japan
you are so sweet sis muahhh i miss you so much. thanks for the song.

11/23/2009 10:10 AM*Hugs*

IwillKungFuurass
r u n idiot? 95, Geeee...I don't know :|, Bhutan
I hear you bro.....nd although that experience would have really hurt like hell to you...it also contained an opportunity for your spiritual growth...u learnt forgiveness..a lesson was learnt, the purpose of experience was served. Where most people would have tried to get there revenge( vengeance is a form of grief), you choose to forgive...and that is something really awesome...it requires courage, patience and above all the "acceptance of the experience life has offered us" ......you didn't denied that experience, and now is the time for you to don't deny life...move on with a free heart. Life is not about success or failure, it's about the opportunities which help us grow , *smiles* and surely you DO KNOW how to love because you can forgive, because you don't want to see your loved one in pain even when they hurt you......so your heart is not dead, it's more alive than most of us!! Cheers :)

6 days agoRe: *Hugs*

kenjichandesu
kenji 40, Saitama, Japan
are you sure you are 18? your words of wisdom so deep. i dont think you are 18. your reply is the best that i read in this journal. you look at all side of the angles maybe you are psychic .you read me sis. yes i forgiven her. life must go on with the help of my friends.

thank you so much your reply is much appreciated.

6 days agoRe: Re: *Hugs*

IwillKungFuurass
r u n idiot? 95, Geeee...I don't know :|, Bhutan
Hahahaaaa.....ok quick facts about me :-

1. If u would have visited my page, you would have seen "male" written there, lol.
2. The picture is not of a a blonde girl but of a hybrid of Obama and bush with a wig, it's my personal joke.
3. Yeah, I am not 18, I am in my 20s, just don't see a point creating a real profile on sites like zorpia....lots of stupid people here.
4. I am neither a psychic nor a logical/analytical person, but my life did taught me few facts which i love to share here and there!


You are welcome :)

5 days agoRe: Re: Re: *Hugs*

kenjichandesu
kenji 40, Saitama, Japan
i see experience make you deep huh. thx for reply. btw even you are girl you are too young from me.

5 days agoRe: Re: Re: Re: *Hugs*

IwillKungFuurass
r u n idiot? 95, Geeee...I don't know :|, Bhutan
Hahahaaaa....why do you think a girl or a boy can only have GF/BF type relationship? LMAO, anyways I don't know how much you believe in reincarnation, but according to my beliefs this girl(who hurt you...her soul) shared her previous life/s with you and in that life she was the victim of your actions. Since then a karmic bond was forged and the power status swapped...and it was meant to occur till endless lifetimes until BOTH of you have forgiven each other, and it seems this lifetime of yours fulfilled it. You can read actual case studies of patients in any of Dr. Brian Weiss or Edgar Cayce's books apart from vedic scripture.
On the positive note, because of her, you met your "real" friends.....hahahaaaa....like buy one get one free offer(you learnt forgiveness and as a reward got true friends)......you see..life is not always bad :)

5 days agoRe: Re: Re: Re: Re: *Hugs*

kenjichandesu
kenji 40, Saitama, Japan
i dont believe even in life after death. there is no such things. why do i suffer for my past if there is?

5 days agoRe: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: *Hugs*

IwillKungFuurass
r u n idiot? 95, Geeee...I don't know :|, Bhutan
As I said...it's a BELIEF...everyone has there own, like some believe in god(which they haven't seen) and some don't. As long as a person is happy, it's good.

9 hrs agoRe: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: *Hugs*

kenjichandesu
kenji 40, Saitama, Japan
i believe in god .but he never gave me a happiness.he is so unfair to me.

8 hrs agoRe: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: *Hugs*

IwillKungFuurass
r u n idiot? 95, Geeee...I don't know :|, Bhutan
That is because before coming to this earth your soul choose a harder life path for accelerated learnings. Usually advanced souls select harder life so that, they can learn more lessons than offered by the life of luxury. This way they escape from taking more births to learn there lessons. Remember....bad situations contains the opportunity of growth. Good situations/life is just there to make one feel refresh and charged...like a roadside motel. If life is a journey and traveler is you(or me)...then all the bad road conditions,tiredness the traveler encounters during his journey is what you call....bad situations/pain etc. Good situations/happiness is just the motel..... exhausted traveler rest there, feels happy,refreshed and continues his journey :).

It was your soul that CHOOSE this life...now it's the time...YOU should respect it's decision. In the grand scheme of god mind...there are no accidents....though our little reasoning can't understand certain things and call them accidents/bad things .

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11/14/2009 11:07 AMOMG!!

SolemnWanderer
Roshni Royal Zorpian  108, Nonsense makes the world go around., United Kingdom
That is outragious! She thinks she can fool you agian!! If I were you, I would let her come back to me, and...I donno...may be I would have killed her!

11/14/2009 12:12 PMRe: OMG!!

kenjichandesu
kenji 40, Saitama, Japan
no way prison is not my home i am not killer. lol you are so violent rochni

11/14/2009 12:23 PMRe: Re: OMG!!

SolemnWanderer
Roshni Royal Zorpian  108, Nonsense makes the world go around., United Kingdom
No not violant...its just too much. It makes me mad...honestly!!

hey..come to my topic...its for you guys.

11/14/2009 12:29 PMRe: Re: Re: OMG!!

kenjichandesu
kenji 40, Saitama, Japan
ok i will see you there i will just reply my topics

11/14/2009 12:34 PMRe: Re: Re: Re: OMG!!

SolemnWanderer
Roshni Royal Zorpian  108, Nonsense makes the world go around., United Kingdom
I started a serious topic in reply to Koch's topic last night. But it turned into a humour one...Some of the people who knows Nalla for a very long time joind there and made it a mad topic...Lollzzz

11/14/2009 12:35 PMRe: Re: Re: Re: Re: OMG!!

kenjichandesu
kenji 40, Saitama, Japan
ok ill try to drop by later

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11/12/2009 11:48 PMKen, here is what I have to say!!!

KNGHTRIDER2000
KNIGHT RIDER Royal Zorpian  44, Richibucto, New Brunswick, Canada
Many people get scammed, but don't let this stop you from loving again, You are a good man, learned a lesson the hard way, which I am sorry you had to go through all that.

Many people don't think of scams when love is suppose to be present, but it does happen, almost did to me as well.

I was so in love with this girl who e-mailed me every day for 2 years, she even made a poster of me and her with lots of love.

Then one day, she asked for money, she wanted to come to my country, that is when i was shattered, I told her, pay for your ticket to here, and I would pay you back when you arrive.

Guess what, never heard from her again......

That's when I put up this red flag, scammers and cons, always on the alert now.

Like you , I gave up on finding true love, the thing is, we are the ones losing, what happens if we find someone who truly wants to be with us???

When money is mentioned, run, but never close the door to anyone who wants to love us for real, do you get my meaning ken????

11/13/2009 12:08 AMRe: Ken, here is what I have to say!!!

kenjichandesu
kenji 40, Saitama, Japan
wow wo touching reply thank you knight. the truth is im scared. i am not capable this time i am still burried with my loans. might be someday if i am already get out to my grave. but now it is imposible to trust.

11/13/2009 12:11 AMRe: Re: Ken, here is what I have to say!!!

KNGHTRIDER2000
KNIGHT RIDER Royal Zorpian  44, Richibucto, New Brunswick, Canada
I had a friend who was played this way and she is depth too, but she found her man, finally, so never give up on love, just learn from the experience, love always find it's way to us.:)

11/13/2009 12:14 AMRe: Re: Re: Ken, here is what I have to say!!!

kenjichandesu
kenji 40, Saitama, Japan
you are the boss thank you knight its good advise

11/13/2009 12:24 AMRe: Re: Re: Re: Ken, here is what I have to say!!!

KNGHTRIDER2000
KNIGHT RIDER Royal Zorpian  44, Richibucto, New Brunswick, Canada
For the longest time Ken, I shut myself down, refused to fall in love again, bitter even, and even though I did not trust women no more, I still did not see all women as the same.

Women face the same as us, which makes true love to be really found, but you are alive, I am alive, so we have a purpose in this life.

This idea is what keeps me going, I don't know my purpose yet, but I am alive, so I must have one.:)

11/13/2009 12:27 AMRe: Re: Re: Re: Re: Ken, here is what I have to say!!!

kenjichandesu
kenji 40, Saitama, Japan
ok i have to work for a while knight.. keep in touch.

11/13/2009 12:30 AMRe: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Ken, here is what I have to say!!!

KNGHTRIDER2000
KNIGHT RIDER Royal Zorpian  44, Richibucto, New Brunswick, Canada
Ok Ken, just remember, I am never far.:)

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11/6/2009 11:20 PMohhh

mysth
mysth 37, LIVE & LET LIVE, Philippines
so this is the whole story...just read this right now...well as i've told u...learn from the experience...don't bury yourself in the grave...just move on...life is beautiful...live for today...hope for tomorrow and don't let the past keep haunting u...i know that in the end you'll find what u deserved my friend...after all, there's always a rainbow after the rain...yeah yeah im singing now for u...lol...smile...forgive & forget....

11/6/2009 11:23 PMRe: ohhh

kenjichandesu
kenji 40, Saitama, Japan
wow thank for syphaty im kinda okey now with my friends in zorpia ..you are one of them

11/6/2009 11:26 PMRe: Re: ohhh

mysth
mysth 37, LIVE & LET LIVE, Philippines
thanks a lot for considering me as one of your friends

and im happy that you're ok now...forget the material things what's important is that you're still breathing after she left u...but better look again for someone who will make u happy...life is good...

11/6/2009 11:28 PMRe: Re: Re: ohhh

kenjichandesu
kenji 40, Saitama, Japan
not easy i love her so much. my heart is dead.

11/6/2009 11:33 PMRe: Re: Re: Re: ohhh

mysth
mysth 37, LIVE & LET LIVE, Philippines
as long as you're living it can't be dead...just sleeping i guess...if someone u really like comes ur way again...it will be awaken...love has magical spell....and im hoping for that day for u my friend

11/6/2009 11:46 PMRe: Re: Re: Re: Re: ohhh

kenjichandesu
kenji 40, Saitama, Japan

11/6/2009 11:36 PMRe: Re: Re: Re: Re: ohhh

kenjichandesu
kenji 40, Saitama, Japan
thank you for encouragement...you really good friend god bless you

11/6/2009 11:44 PMRe: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: ohhh

mysth
mysth 37, LIVE & LET LIVE, Philippines
God bless u too...have a great weekend....gtg now...enjoy there

11/6/2009 11:49 PMRe: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: ohhh

kenjichandesu
kenji 40, Saitama, Japan

11/6/2009 11:52 PMRe: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: ohhh

mysth
mysth 37, LIVE & LET LIVE, Philippines
you're welcome...and thanks for the friendship...be happy...
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11/7/2009 12:04 AMRe: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: ohhh

kenjichandesu
kenji 40, Saitama, Japan
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11/7/2009 12:09 AMRe: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: ohhh

mysth
mysth 37, LIVE & LET LIVE, Philippines
hehehehe...what a kiss...
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11/7/2009 12:13 AMRe: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: ohhh

kenjichandesu
kenji 40, Saitama, Japan
this time more hot kiss im gonna give u

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11/7/2009 12:15 AMRe: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: ohhh

mysth
mysth 37, LIVE & LET LIVE, Philippines
hehehehe....bad...i prefer the cute kisses of a child to a mom

11/7/2009 12:18 AMRe: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: ohhh

kenjichandesu
kenji 40, Saitama, Japan
ohhh ok ill give you one nice kiss as appreciations. sorry my lip stick might stain you lol
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11/7/2009 12:31 AMRe: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: ohhh

mysth
mysth 37, LIVE & LET LIVE, Philippines
hahahaha....still bad...hehehe...i really g2g...thanks for the time my friend...enjoy your day...
have a magical weekend
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11/11/2009 12:10 PMRe: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: ohhh

kenjichandesu
kenji 40, Saitama, Japan
ok see you around my friend

11/11/2009 11:24 PMRe: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re:

mysth
mysth 37, LIVE & LET LIVE, Philippines
ok take care...God bless....

11/7/2009 12:34 AMRe: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: ohhh

kenjichandesu
kenji 40, Saitama, Japan
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11/6/2009 10:37 PMohhh

akikawaii
akiho 25, Tokyo, Japan
ohh ken why you making this hard? move on !

11/6/2009 11:08 PMRe: ohhh

kenjichandesu
kenji 40, Saitama, Japan
im okey now aki. nothing be be worried .i met good people here.

11/4/2009 9:47 PMkenji

yukichandesu
yuki 25, Tokyo, Japan
this is bullsh*t ! why you posted this ? to embaraced yourself? this is not helping you kenji remove this !!!!!!!!!

11/5/2009 1:01 AMRe: kenji

kenjichandesu
kenji 40, Saitama, Japan
sorry yuki ill delete it

11/6/2009 8:24 AMRe: Re: kenji

yukichandesu
yuki 25, Tokyo, Japan
please dont embaraced yourself. heve a dignity kenji

11/6/2009 9:16 AMRe: Re: Re: kenji

kenjichandesu
kenji 40, Saitama, Japan
ok boss as you've requested.

11/11/2009 3:03 AMRe: Re: Re: Re: kenji

yukichandesu
yuki 25, Tokyo, Japan
its still there ken. dont gathered sympathy here. its not good ken

11/13/2009 12:17 AMRe: Re: Re: Re: Re: kenji

kenjichandesu
kenji 40, Saitama, Japan
sorry yuki those friends helping me to move on

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11/3/2009 4:25 PMoh you must be so busy

HeartSong69
dori 40, Canada
traveling and being so busy wow
and do you ever have the jet lag effect
what do you think of when in the air
when the first was on a plane i felt so
close to my creator heehehhee
and i am affraid of heights :)

11/3/2009 4:28 PMRe: oh you must be so busy

kenjichandesu
kenji 40, Saitama, Japan
yes sometimes but im used to it dori

11/3/2009 4:32 PMRe: Re: oh you must be so busy

HeartSong69
dori 40, Canada
hmm guess you have travelled much then
hmm must be so nice :)

11/3/2009 4:37 PMRe: Re: Re: oh you must be so busy

kenjichandesu
kenji 40, Saitama, Japan
tiring sometimes

11/6/2009 1:11 PMRe: Re: Re: Re: oh you must be so busy

HeartSong69
dori 40, Canada
it must be tiring hmmmm

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11/6/2009 11:07 PMRe: Re: Re: Re: Re: oh you must be so busy

kenjichandesu
kenji 40, Saitama, Japan
so cute thank you

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11/3/2009 12:14 AMhi hope you are having a good day

HeartSong69
dori 40, Canada

11/3/2009 12:15 AMRe: hi hope you are having a good day

kenjichandesu
kenji 40, Saitama, Japan
you're sweet dori thx..is your place near toronto?im always visiting toronto.
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