Today I went to McMaster for a campus tour visit for something like two hours…the visit was pretty okay actually. I got to see a variety of buildings: the psychology building, the biology one building, physics, and this huge lecture room on campus. Thank goodness today’s visit was by a small group of people so that was no problem…the more sociable people get to talk, and since I am pretty nervous, shy, and if you will – unwilling to speak, I let them to the asking and the questioning for me…it saves me all the effort of stuttering, blah, blah…

Besides, I sometimes really do get annoyed in front of strangers, foreigners, and aliens – I am not very used the social world, so I get others to do me indirect favors, it makes socialism a lot easier, and I don’t have to be part of the party (no pun : ) intended)…

I know this sucks a bit for me, but when I could ask questions, somehow the questions just never get formed properly in my mind, so I never know what I don’t know…so I just follow along, and listen carefully while other people ask questions – it might relate to mine, so I hardly ask…or for that matter – I try to solve the problem by myself. It is a bit crappy in some extents, but really what could I do about it? My mind is one big chaos sometimes, so I need to get it organized by doing activities that actually requires organization so that my mind, brain or whatever you want to call it – does what it is suppose to do without much trouble…while I do question things a lot in my own mind, I hardly ever speak up. I should seriously learn to speak out every single thing that I hate about the world, myself, and just about anything that bothers me…. Interestingly enough, this relates to my current status in World History seminar sessions – I need to learn to fuck the crap out of this word by ignoring the opinions of others, and using the synthesis of different opinions to state a perspective that way out there, but is of vital use…marks. Lord X definitely needs to speak out his voice, and declare his voice over others – whether masters or slaves, leaders or followers, young or old…

While I know that I have not updated very often on Zorpia, the time has now come to make this site a legend – a machine that spews out all thoughts regardless of what others think, and of indifference to the demands of the masses – how much of a blessing is it for the intellect that the ignorant could always be swayed according to whatever petty little ideology that they want.

Hope you all had fun seeing the rise of the New Age Propaganda…

Xinyu Hu