Monday,Mar 15 2004, 04:59:00 AMmy brain has literally shrunk by 30% in 4...

my brain has literally shrunk by 30% in 4 hours. literally. i mean it.

dead tired

dead eyes

dead brain

my brain!!! my head!! my mind!

i wish i had a coma and wake up 3 months later and everything's still alright then i'd be in heaven.

this is hell

people have eating disorders

i have sleeping disorders.

both extremes from the spectrum, i have them.

sleeping = throwing up! getting wasted and become an addict.

i hate sleeping but i can never let go of it. i'm preconditioned to be a sleeping disorder sufferer.

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A spiritual cast

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Valid during many months: During this time your relationships take on a spiritual cast, and you are much more inclined to idealize the people you meet. If a lover comes into your life at this time, the relationship will be so romanticized that it will be in great danger when you discover that the other person is not as perfect as you thought. Overidealization in any relationship is a danger to be watched for with this influence. There is also a strong tendency to get caught up in an ideal philosophy, a spiritualized world view that is so abstract and removed from the real world that you are neither able nor willing to function here. You may have a strong desire to escape and withdraw from the world (oh yes, i want vacation! i want to leave!), which can be useful in some cases. If you are aware of this tendency and know that it is temporary, you can make positive use of it. There are times when it is important to go off by yourself and meditate upon the meaning of your life and what you are doing with it. The only problem is that you probably cannot go off for the whole duration of this influence, because it usually lasts more than a year. (a year?? what the fuck!?)But for part of the time this might be a desirable plan of action. A spiritual teacher or guide figure may enter your life at this time(it must be jack black!), and regardless of his or her personal merits you are likely to learn something valuable from the encounter. That does not mean that you should take everything you are told at face value. After this influence has passed, you will be able to reevaluate what you have learned in the light of your own intelligence and experience. At this time your ego drives are rather low, which makes you less interested in questioning what someone tells you. You reflect very strongly on your own failures and inadequacies, not destructively, but with the aim of improving yourself. Your relationships are characterized by increased empathy and spiritual understanding of other people's situations and needs.

i can hear the P word ringing in my head! need to wait for another week! and this is reading week! purgatory!

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Sunday,Mar 14 2004, 07:37:00 PMi feel like JC/G and you? a hag you are such...

i feel like JC/G

and you? a hag

you are such a drag

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Saturday,Mar 13 2004, 01:23:00 PMwatched the school of rock hurrah! favourite...

watched the school of rock

hurrah!

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