Tic Tac..Tic Tac..

Time seems to be passing even slower than that heavy loaded ant on the top of my table.

I tighten my fists...Seriously, I'm stressed. The urge of eating is keep on bothering me as if my mother was warning me not to return home beyond my curfew. It's annoying, it's non stop. Despite my stomach made that I'm not hungry announcement to my brain, my mind and my deeds didn't cooperate. I know that I'm not hungry, it's just that I want to bite, I want to chew, I want to swallow...anyways, I want to EAT.  This, really stress me out! I mean, come on! I have spent tonns of effort on my diet, and why on earth just come one day after I recovered from my Gastroenteritis condition, I became a freaking filty pig!!! That's so unfair... I start to fear that I might get bulimia... So, I cross my fingers tight now...and will start my diet again tomorrow, which I'll try so hard not to wreck again! I can't become a freaking fat bastard here..I made myself clear!

I just finish reading P.s. I love you...Oh my God, that's a brilliant story! So, beautiful that love eternal. A dying husband tells his wife that he's happy and got no regrets for she has become his life. This book made me tear...bitter sweet...

I'm actually very muchly contented with my situation right now...Single..Not looking and all that stuffs... Things have just clicked in my mind and I know very well where to stand...what I should do in order to have a happy ending... bla bla bla...Anyways, I'm religious and I see things in a religious kind of way... God comes first and everything will just follow..and I just have to stand firm by my principles!! Good!!

But... there are things that just barged into my mind... all just some sudden thoughts...things that I haven't been thinking for quite a long while... something that just made me recall not very happy moments... Things about broken promises~ I just hate it when people know that there's something that they won't be able to do...and yet just for the moment's sake and make promises that will just end up broken and undone...

What's worse than hopeless?? Is when there's a hope in front of you, and yet that hope is just a fake...makes someone rejoyce..happy and then there...falls into the bottom of a deep damn well!! There are just times that I can't stop myself thinking... why all those promises... sounded so beautiful..and yet they are all empty.. then a tear will just drop down along my cheek and I'll just sigh... What can I do???

One song... also makes my heart ache... It says," you said you'll bring me to your castle... bring me with you even if the sky changes...all of these things, you've promised me...I just didn't think that what brought away everything...was nothing but the wind..." It was sad..and I was mad why they're some people in this earth can be so heartless...not think about others' feelings...compare to other things happening right now.. this sure is very minor... but this over here.. just makes me sick...

Just please to people who ever want to be a part in my life... don't make promises that you can't keep... 'cause like it or not.. I despise on people who do empty talk..broken promises in order to get what they want...

I'm not trying to be miserable here.. but it's just some thoughts that were inside for quite awhile and I just wanted it to break free... since this is my blog and I will post what I want here!!!!

January 23,2008 Wednesday

Today I worked only for 4 hours... 10am up to 2pm..and I was really happy and flattered today..:))))hahahahahahaha

Well... yesterday 2 canadian customers of mine called me "that girl with a big smile." One of them told me that if he wasn't too old for me he would have asked me to marry him.. then the other one kept telling me to quit Hong Kong and go to Canada with them..and today they came again, all and all they were 5 and they all ate from my counter >u< my 2 canadian customers with a canadian lady, a canadian young man(actually he's approximately 24-25) and a chinese guy.. My 2 customers told me that they came back for some more smile and they were busy telling their chinese company that I am a girl with a big smile and they were convincing me to go to canada with them.. I was giggling all the time..laughing... and when all the food were ready, this canadian young man(he's quite good looking ;)))) hahahahaha) took all of them..and when he took the last tray he told me that I was the most beautiful girl he has ever seen in Hong Kong.. He flattered me big time!!!! And when he left, he said he'll be back after 2 months and he'll come for me.. And that made me got all that energy to be the cheerful AnneAnne at work ;) My colleagues let me go 30 mins earlier than I should>v< kakakakaka and before I left.. I saw Luca(in my favorite clothes ;)) and waved goodbye to him.. I got to catch my ferry as well...

Yesterday, Alex came to eat again~ Ah 9 and Ah Sang were blamed by me for coming back to work early...cause as long as they were out for a smoke..Alex chatted with me and only when they came back then he has to order >0< I have realized that I really enjoy hearing Alex talking about some really childish and stupid topic..cause I was always afraid to say something that would make him think that I am stupid..'cause he's more on a serious type when it comes to studies.. he's that one political minded..history liking guy..he can be really deep at times.. giving me headaches..(I'm more on lazy to use my brain..but I will when I need to..and I am just that one person that hates people thinking I'm brainless..dumb person~ho ho but I was a bright student when I was studying..a nerd actually..)and so I really love it when he told me his weird dream that he met the weezers at the airport and made him late at class.. So we got quite a good chat :)))) Ah 9 and Ah Sang were teasing me, they said I should have went out and ate with him..and said it was socializing for the company since I am their PR..So I was like giving them that look of "who told you to come back so early!!!" Anyways... I was glad to see Alex again...

These were just a bit of some things that made me happy...flattered...(hu~~ I'm so sorry...but I just felt happy that I wanted to express it...)