Good Afternoon world! The crazy is back. It has been quite an effort to getting used to being weak and vulnerable for months now that I forgot who I am. That was bu**shit. And I never take crap from anyone.

Conversations with a good friend last night made me go into introspective mode and realize certain truths about the grey areas of my life that I have been trying to uncover. Some, I can't even bring to write here. I refuse to provide the detonation sequence of what is about to come. But I'm glad I had that conversation.

I have uncovered several behavioral patterns that have manifested, several coherences in actions that are too good to be true (and usually they are), and never ending cycles that are continuously playing at an endless loop. The latest casualty --- ME. Stupid, stupid stupid me. It was a con, years in the making, planned very carefully, and executed with precision. Bravo!

The end result? Me falling in line after each and every casualty. Now there is a new record to break. Mine. Hahahaha. Pitiful are those who follow in my footsteps and are now in my shoes. Brace yourselves ... another storm is coming .... ME.

Baby
I know you're hurting right now
But don't worry I'll be me
I'll be your superman(no, no)
[Chorus]
I can love you like no one can
I can be your superman(superman)
Just take my hand let's fly away
I promise I'll be there everyday
Just close your eyes let's start to fly
I'm gonna love you until I die(till I die)
Until the day of my death to my very last breath
I'm gonna love you when no ones left
Come fly with me baby
Yeah I'm the one
With the S on my chest
Forget about your ex
He don't know what love is
He just failed the test
Plus he don't treat you right
He keeps you crying all night
See, he's like your kryptonite
I came to give you that strength
So you can leave him behind
You can start all over
Just press rewind
Cause he don't understand that you're one of a kind
So sweet, so sexy and just so fine
I will fight to my death just to make you mine
I will never neglect you
Never have time to stress you
And always respect you
Girl you like a hidden treasure
And I promise to love you
From now until forever
Oh para siempre mija
Te prometo que Te voy amar
Hasta la muerte
[Chorus]
I can love you like no one can
I can be your superman(superman)
Just take my hand let's fly away
I promise I'll be there everyday
Just close your eyes let's start to fly
I'm gonna love you until I die(till I die)
Until the day of my death to my very last breath
I'm gonna love you when no ones left
I'm the type of guy
That will stand by your side
To wipe them tears when they fall from your eyes
I'm the one you hold when your nights is cold
The one that stays near to fight away your fears
You aint gotta be scared
See I put an end to your ex
No more beating you up (nuh uh)
Or pulling on your hair
See I came to save the day
A man like that should'nt treat you that way
And I don't understand why'd you take that route?
Look at yourself
Your beautiful inside and out
You need to drop that zero (uhh)
Let me swoop you off your feet
Cause I can be your superhero
Do you follow my lead?
I guarantee you baby
I'm all that you need
See, you can change your plans
All you got to do is call on me and I can be your superman
[Girl:]
Will you be by my side for the rest of my life?
For the rest of my life
Will you love me untill I die?
[Chorus]
I can love you like no one can
I can be your superman(superman)
Just take my hand let's fly away
I promise I'll be there everyday
Just close your eyes let's start to fly
I'm gonna love you until I die(till I die)
Until the day of my death to my very last breath
I'm gonna love you when no ones left
[Girl:]
No ones left
Till no ones left
Till no ones left
Gonna love you
Gonna love you
My superman
My superman
Song lyrics | Superman lyrics

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I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so
I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so
I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so
I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid
Because of you
Because of you

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Post #3
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Cooper DMselector replied to your poston Mar 24, 2008 at 12:49 AM.
Well, another 187! Another victom! the answer is nope for sure. U've been hoodwinked!
Post #4
Sarah A. Hads replied to Cooper's poston Mar 24, 2008 at 2:21 AM.
so...better to stop right?
anyway thanks for the comments.
HAve a nice day!
Post #5
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Abbas Khalil replied to your poston Mar 24, 2008 at 2:56 AM.
dear Sarah,
After going through your post, it is quiet obvious that the guy does not love you, it seems he has no interest in you whatsoever. To having someone in your life, to need someone, to love someone, who can understand it better then the one who has been through hell, the pain and suffering of loosing the one you love very dearly. I myself have lost the one I loved and I know exactly how you feel like having lost the one you love. the truth is that guy doesn't not deserve you, you deserve better and you will find better! good things come to those who walk through thick and thin, fire and ice....
The guy held no respect for you, he did not cater to your needs, all in all he never even tried contacting you....If someone loves you dearly, they will come to you, no matter what!
I do not want to sound mean or evil, but I would recommend you move on in life, it has its up and downs, that doesn't mean you should be like a broken vase. We are better then those who play with our hearts, play with our emotions, hurt us, make us suffer.. All we want to do is love, all we want is peace, peace in our hearts and mind. I ask what is so wrong to love someone? sadly not many share the same thoughts as us...let time heal your wounds and then find someone who you wish to be with. Right now if you try to go after another guy...it may not go well...relationship started with broken hearts do not go well....let time heal your wounds, your a good person, in time you will find all the happiness you deserve!
Post #6
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You replied to Abbas's poston Mar 24, 2008 at 4:46 AM.
Hi...
really thank you...even u make me cry--really im not ok coz afetr all the companionship and everything- in a blast like these---
im ready to move on and continue my life--presently noy entertaining anybody just wanna be alone and use my time working and writing stuff---stuff which comes from the heart!
i know someone will gonna be there for me---inshallah!
Have a nice day my friend wish me well!

Post #8
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Sarah Hsah replied to your poston Mar 24, 2008 at 5:12 AM.
my final goodbyeShare
After months of wallowing in my misery I have finally decided that its time to just let go of everything.
I tried so hard to salvage a little of what was once a happy relationship and keep a piece of it and guise it as friendship. But time only proved that I have to let go of that as well.
It was like holding on to a piece of broken glass.
The more you held on to it, the more it cuts you and I can't afford to continue bleeding.
I cannot completely move on while I continue to deceive myself thinking that I am ok and that everything has been forgiven.
Its not easy throwing away something that at some point in my life, I considered the reason for living… the only person I wanted to spend the rest of my life with.
But I guess it's pointless to speak of forever when you can’t even guarantee tomorrow.
I have long decided that we can't put things the way it was and that did not change. Besides, things are very, very different now sometimes I don't even recognize myself anymore.
But one thing I do know for sure and that is I want to completely forget this chapter of my life.
I want to wipe the slate clean leaving no trace of us ever crossing paths. I believe I have suffered enough and its time to get on with my life and just let karma do his job.
I'm sure he knows what everybody deserves.
So this is my final goodbye.
I am closing this chapter forever.
Maybe someday we will cross paths again and I will smile w/c means everything is forgiven and we can be friends.
But for now, I need to find myself so we should continue walking and not look back.
It's better for everyone that way
Post #9
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Manahil Alqassab replied to Abbas's poston Mar 24, 2008 at 5:23 AM.
good afternon mr.abbas!?
am amazed of ur reply ..it seems that u sure been through a lot !?!
men seems just having fun now a days but few like ur self r may called men for real!?
thanx
Post #10
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Manahil Alqassab replied to Sarah's poston Mar 24, 2008 at 5:29 AM.
sweety sarah,
life that does not breakes u makes u stronger
u r a survival .. sis
Post #11
Sarah A. Hads replied to Manahil's poston Mar 24, 2008 at 5:57 AM.
Thanks as well my dear-- this what i need - an enlightenment--
i am always willing to listen for advices....
thanks!
Post #12
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Abbas Khalil replied to Manahil's poston Mar 24, 2008 at 6:56 AM.
thx for the compliment :D, life isn't all sunshine and roses o.O, I am happy in the fact that I atleast am in a position in society where I am well off....for looking at humanity and conditions of most....poor....people starving....living in deteriorating conditions....it makes me value life more then ever.
Life isn't all about having a partner, life is a gift, which we should enjoy and as fellow human beings it is our duty to help those who are in need, to help those who seek it, to make not only our own life better but to that the whole of society.
life partner will come in time, till then I must attend to those that need my help..
The world is my home, and to do good is my religion.
Post #13
Sarah Hsah replied to Abbas's poston Mar 24, 2008 at 7:43 AM.
good that still there's some people who have this thinking---
like you!
thanks again from the bottom of my heart
for this another inspiring msg!
Post #14
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F.A. Mohd wroteon Mar 24, 2008 at 10:33 AM.
Dear Sis,
if some one loves u, will never let u in tears and pain
he will always make u smile whtever he's going through
so let go and try to live ur life happily
and life is too short to live it in pain
hope u all the best in the future :)
Post #15
You replied to F.A.'s poston Mar 24, 2008 at 12:06 PM.
HI....really appreciate ur thughts---
i'm trying to live far from him but inside me is scary kid---always thinking that he's following me in everywhere even im not doing wrong!
I know it's over and coz of some "matters" im still in jail--im still under his shadow....he's a wise man and i know with every move i make he will do worst!
How i will be ok as whole ? How can i removed him in my system?
It's really easy to say that words....but it's hard to mean it!
I know i have to LET GO.....but how? I cannot love another unless he's totally out---- i know stupidity runs over me that's why i need guidance. I'm not the only one who's struggling with this "thing"---
and i need a shoulder to lean on.
anyway----thank you so much for your WISH...hope that sooner or later I WILL BE OK....

Have anice night!
Post #16
Sarah Hussain replied to your poston Mar 24, 2008 at 1:41 PM.
DON'T HOLD ON BCOZ U THINK THERE'LL BE NO 1 ELSE.
THERE WILL ALWAYS BE SOME1 ELSE.
YOU'VE GOT TO BELIEVE YOU'RE WORTH MORE THAN BEING REPEATEDLY BEING HURT BY SOME1 WHO DOES'NT REALLY CARE AND BELIEVE THAT SOME1 WILL SEE WHAT YOU'RE REALLY WORTH AND TREAT YOU THE WAY YOU SHOULD BE TREATED.
Just wanna share it---got it from a friend!
Post #17
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Cooper DMselector wroteon Mar 24, 2008 at 3:16 PM.
Well, first i gotta say... Abbass! I AM IMPRESSED! and may i break ur copyright lil cuz i want it to be a complement to my ideas so our message can be a direct push in the vein for this lil poor girl...
Ya know, Sarah, the whole story, first ya gonna keep in ur mind that u r not alone who experiance that, not alone cuz there r people who can help.
For that guy, three questions can explore the case.
1- Did he loved u the first time u met? ---------- NO
2- Did he loved ya later? ----------- believe it or not... YES
3- Then why did he do that? ----- Cuz he was snapped!!
Okay, its so likely story, and like what Abbass said, he is not the guy who u deserve, so lets role back to see the whole drama,
A guy who is tricky enough to get his victom, choosing her considering to choose another later, his victom was a girl who is lil far from his actual being, keeping her in darkness, blinded, on stage, so he can freely play backstage! like a bat keeping his victoms in dark room, he can see them, they can feel him when he is close, but not noticing each others around. If he is close to one, the other cannot see whats going on... a guy like that, surly doesnt love, thats why the answer for question 1 was No. It was all planned.
Why did he loved u later? hmm, a man can be effected emotionally by a woman, thats nature, thats desire. but as the man experiance new flavor of women and desire his thoughts expands, making him hard to be controlled if he is sick, like ur one. so what happened it, over-desired, over-hunger, exaggerated, seeking more. seeking new. He loved ya, yes, but u opend an eyes of a psycho. that end is to why he was "Snapped" to went for another GF.
Okay then, what to do? friends told up there to walk away, thats what u should do, u r not missing ur lover cuz he never been so. Too easy.
Preventive measure, so things never happened again. Study the guy, predict what tricks he can implement, motitor him, choose the guy who u can monitor! other r too hard to get dear!!! be carefull, assess the effort of both sides, this relation can be carried by two only! not One nor THREE!! only two! if any weakness noticed, spell it out! dont hasitate, its a waste of time. don't depend on luck, its brains world, u learn, u grow. If u run after love, it can be so hard to get, but believe me, if u stopped running, it will run to u, so take the easy way. [Note] i read that he reason it with u being not arab, hhehe, he is just another dumpass muthaf****, it has nothing to do with arab or spanish or alien, human, seraching for other human that match him and fill the gaps he have, it has nothing to do with nationalities, cultures can hind such relations, but agreement from first step wont harm.
may god bless Lord Replica (R.I.P) "He taught me most of what i know now"
and the rest of the world

Post #18
Sarah Hussain replied to your poston Mar 24, 2008 at 10:53 PM.
I'm excited to see and meet that person, who can make me smile for a while, who can spend some time reminiscing fruitful memories of past. I'm longing for that one of kind embrace that sets my nerves to calmness and bliss. Yeah very ironic and impossible.
I'm looking for that person who can tolerate my 'not-so-funny' jokes, who can spare time asking 'How do you feel today?', 'What makes you smile like that?'. I miss my partner who did such, and maybe that's the reason why that person became my standard.
I'm looking for that person who can stand by me, willing to accept my wholeness inspite of my flaws, who can send shivers to my spine.... who can love me I guess...

It's all gone, and I'm starting all over again...
Post #19
Sarah Hsah replied to Cooper's poston Mar 24, 2008 at 11:34 PM.
Goodmorning!
WOW-- you hit me TOTALLY!
cannot say more...
THANK YOU XOXOXO MUCH!
like to hear more my dear!


Post #21
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Sarah Hussain wroteon Mar 25, 2008 at 11:37 PM.
Sometimes, we think the best thing is come, but irony seems to have the louder say on things and tells us instead, well, the best is yet to come. Every time we meet people whom we want to become part of our life because we think they can make us happy, lo and behold. Their tenure in our life does not lie in our hands.
We may opt to just mope around, blaming the universe for conspiring against us. After all, how difficult is it to curse the cosmos for playing tricks on our psychology, and TEMPTING us with people whom we want to stay, only to make us realize that such relationship can never be?
But thank god for Nietzsche who has taught us about eternal recurrence. The beauty of losing a potential partner lies in the fact that the temptation shall come again hither, hence making disillusion a step towards more worthy illusion.
There are people whom we discard, and others still who discard us. But despite the end of every beginning, I can echo my co-or in respectful quotations, "heartily know, when half gods go, the gods arrive."
Mortal ka lang.
Post #22
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Abbas Khalil replied to Sarah's poston Mar 26, 2008 at 4:07 AM.
Nietzsche, Friedrich Nietzsche ...I had to look that word up to see what you were talking about. It seems he was a German philosopher! his work seems to be quiet well spread.
And I do say Sarah, you have written all very beautifully. To some indeed love is all, having wealth, health and all that is, is just not enough, for it is not in nature for us to sit idly by and do nothing with ourselves. Do wish you all the best in finding your love.


Post #23
Sarah Hsah replied to Abbas's poston Mar 26, 2008 at 4:42 AM.
yes his the one--- read more about his works---
for now---just wanna be alone--- so that mafi headache!
still surviving!

Have a good day!
All the BEST

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.....etha tabee atarf atasal laee