"Now, I commenced you graduates of 2008!"

As I walked out from the graduation hall, I headed to look for my parents. I was so happy and excited to meet them. My dad was wearing white (the same attire he wore since my eldest sister's graduation), holding up high a bouquet of flowers, standing beside my mum. My dad then helped us to take pictures- he was squatting down, using the digital camera for the first time. Ah, how sweet it was. I felt that it was back to those times when I was younger, when he eagerly took my picture with mum. That day, I was a grown up in my graduation. These are the moments that I wanted to capture.

 I couldn't believe that it turned out the way better than I ever imagined. As 3 hours before the graduation, I was down with bad news. My parents departed late, and I thought they would miss it. My bf couldn't make it this time although he has planned for along time. I went for a hair perm and it turned out to be disastrously old. Then I thought, that was it.

Luckily the hairdresser sympatized me, and recovered my hair back to before. While, sister Rebecca was kind enough to prepare transportation for me, cooked for me and did my make-up. I felt so warm within.

I was really overwhelmed to meet friends who unexpectedly appeared. Kiau Cheh came all the way from Kluang, Adrian, Tintin and Yee Hwa, En Amer, and even my beloved lecturer, Dr. Saad came to share my glorious day. :0) I was suprised by the smses from my seniors.

I was also grateful towards my sister and Marcus who took leaves to come, and my god grandmother too.

I am really grateful and happy enough...

When I see the picture of the sunflowers BJ gave me. Though I can't see, smell and hold it in real, but those flowers have already brighten my heart.

When my dad is happy. He didnt complained about my plans and has been very understanding.

When my family is able to spend good times to together to talk, joke and laugh.

When I am able to take pictures with my beloved friends before we part.

When I am able to snap some pictures with the sisters.

When my friends came to share my joy and bring joy to me.

Finaly, at the end of the day

I realised, that this graduation is not for me to celebrate MY success , instead, it is the time to express my deepest gratitude towards those have always stood by me till I am able to reach success.

Gratitudes...

Thank God, for the marvelous plan He has prepared. He has guided me step by step. All things originate from You, dear Lord. Without You, I am nothing.

My Family and BJ who have always believed in me and cheered for me.

My Friends who went through these memorable 4 years of thick and thin with me.

My Church members who have been my strength when I am weak.

And everyone who shared this joy with me.

Cheers to you, fellow USM Pharmacy Students, Class of 2008!

Gee... I am officially a jobless graduate!

           Just came back from Sex and The City Movie with Mary. It was a fantastic, light, hilarious, relaxing, touching and enlightening movie. Everyone in the cinema was sitting back, relaxing and enjoying it. Felt like we were all watching this drama in a big- cozy- sofa- furnished house, on a Friday night. :0)

           Well, for this18-PL movie to be screened in Malaysia, all the "deemed unhealthy" scenes have been cut.  But it is still heart warming minus the lust. My favourite character is Samantha. Not because at her being a sex goddess, but because she is such  a capable woman. She has it all, she knows what she wanted and how to get it, how to handle situations, and how to comfort a friend. She is definitely the person I most likely would want to be if  I was desolated in an island.

            There was this scene about how Carrie still miss and love Big though he did not show up in their wedding. Which later they got back together, after Big sent her letters taken from The Love Letters of Great Men Part 1 with the last letter written himself. (He never wrote any love letters before because he thought was unnecessary). How romantic. Big apologized and so did Carrie. I was surprised at Carrie's apologies. I felt she was being victimized here, she has no wrong. She just want to make her wedding right.

        But I realised in a relationship, is not about the wedding. Is not about me and best of my interest. It is about both of us. Just you and me. Sometimes you focus on the event or thing so much, you can no longer see the person. Is about bringing the best interest for your partner. Is about love.

 Mozart's Love letter to his wife Constanze:

"While I was writing the last page, tear after tear fell on the paper. But I must cheer up - catch! An astonishing number of kisses are flying about - the deuce! I see a whole crowd of them! Ha! Ha!... I have just caught three - they are delicious!"

 Ludwig Beethoven to "Immortal Beloved":

Ever Thine, Ever Mine, Ever Ours.
 

    I haven't been writing journal much because I was writing to impress. Which whenever I start to type, I will be pressured to continue. Will my journal be able to attract people? Will it make them thrill in reading and keep them clicking to my page to follow up? Will they want to read it anyway? After all, my blog is just one of the billions in this World Wide Web. Why would anyone would by chance find it and by choice keep reading it?

    Also because, my blog has been something so saddist lately, I feel it is all cover with clouds of glooms. So, I prefer not write so that I would not keep any of them and let them slowly drift away and past me. Then, I won't be reminded.

But, I decided to shove all these away, because I miss the thrill of writing. Who cares when no one notice you? Because I believe there is surely readers out there who by chance read it. And most important thing is I am able to leave a story of my own, my insights, my thoughts and share them with others. Perhaps, there are readers who will enjoy it and got helped by it. :0) Yeah, I treasure sharings in a 2 way communications with one another.

     Ahh... I have so much feelings right now. Is running late past 12am, but if I don't start writing my thoughts down, they will sip all away , by tomorrow, they will be gone. Who cares? I am not in following rules, I am an emotional, sentimental writer, who writes when the inspirations come.

     Today is a happy, joyful day for me. I met my doctor to confirm the findings. Though there are facts that I can't change, but there are things that I can avoid from becoming a fact. I got a bit worried at first at the calmness of my doctor regarding my case, she refused to do further interventions. While I just wanted to be sure. I wanted to know in detail every single thing and possibility. I wanted to dive so deep, to feel secure. Later, I do appreciate her. Appreciate her for calming me down. " You can live your life as normal, get married, be happy. " Her calm smile is assuring me that I have a future. It was just me being paranoid. I really like this phrase I got from a movie, " Don't waste your life thinking unnecessary things that might happen."

    I could say this experience, I have experienced God to a deeper extend. I learn to trust in Him in everything, my life and all, I put them in His Hand. Because the God that I have in my heart, is not a fake God. He is the real Mighty God who loves me, thus He has prepared a plan for me. Not to harm me but to prosper me. I just need to have faith to believe in Him. Like this, all my fear, worries and doubts just dissipate away. At times, when I have doubt but not able to tell anyone, the Lord is my Listener. After telling Him, I feel so at rest and peaceful. He is really the Shepherd of my soul. He directs my mind, comforts my emotion, guide and leads my will, He leads me to the right place-the good land. And the result of such shepherding makes me LOVEs Him more.