Hi. I would have like to do this everyday, it will have to do until I get the computer at home. I have be looking through this (Zorpia) and I am being to feel like I am older than the other people around or that they are looking for some thing other than friends or poeple too share experences or thoughts etc. I have gotten alot of,   hi I want sex type of stuff when I read,    are there people out here that want to learn about other people, what life can be like out in other parts of the world, etc. I started a group, women sprituality, are there any women out there, who have thoughts about who they are  and what they are about in todays society,    apart of what has already been shoved down our throats. Do'nt any one have an opinion, about what our  lives can be like, I mean the what if!    type of stuff, can we try to connect in a down to earth , getting to know each other, sharing dream etc.    I would like to keep growing and learning , we need to all of us. we can make changes. share the LOVE.

I woke up this morning, and did not want to get off the bed, I feel tried, I had to though, had too get the kids to school. Some time I get so angry, my husband has not been at home in a week, he is on an island right now, Strombuli beautiful place, we go almost every year, he says it for work but I know him and work, for me it just another way to fuck off responsibilty as always, everytime we fight he get too go relax and I am stock with the kids and all that go with it. What fucked,  is  that I do'nt even feel like I want to go beyound the front door, I haven't really work in one year and for me that so depressing I much rather be working, If I am not working it seems like everything has gone under, nothing seems to make sence, I love my kids they are my life, they take most of my all but at least when I work there is something also for me. I just feel like there is  no satifation for me in this life, this country is not my home, I miss my home, I mean if I have to be depressed, I rather it be in my country, big city, city life kills a person, there is a rush for everything and we go nowhere, there is a competition to climb ladders that lead in end to nowhere, it seems that there is not enough so we have to fight each other but that just a bunch of hog wash, there  is so much to go around,  I believe we need to understand that we do'nt have to step over each other to get what we want. I am tried. I woke up but really did not want too!  to all who at times feel like I do, there is something out there, it not hard to see, it's in and around and we are loved, may the Goddess be with each and every one of us.  Be loved.

My name is Gina, and it has been a while that I've wanted to do something like this, so I am taking this at a run, hope to be able to continue.  I was born in the beautiful island of Trinidad and Tobago, I have three sisters and one brother, same mother, same father state this because of some people's minds of the island folks, I'll go though my life as time goes but for today I'll say I have kids and each has his story. I have five boys all between 19-6 and very beautiful and I do'nt say that because I am there mother, they are all beautiful in feature and and in their souls, they'll make interesting men.  I am now married to an Italian man, at first I thought it was love but now it do'nt exist, there is love between two head strong people. I am the way I am because of my life's experiences and I have alway one to learn from them but in the last nine years of marriage has me totally back off from men, I am not saying that I'll leave them off totally but right now they can leave me alone, I am not bitter just fed up, I now belieive to the fullest that there are no real men, I have this fantacy that I would find a man who has a perfect relationship with Goddess, who is aware of the sprituality of the woman, only that way he would be the right one because he would know that we are not here to be one over the other but that we as beings are to be equals, that there is enough for all, that the earth is our mother, and that we are ruled by the stars, but could it really be a dream.