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Tuesday,Oct 14 2008, 10:41:27 PMghabul nadaram!
akhe chera?
na vaghean chera?
chera mani ke na ghalame khubi daram, na baladam khub harf bezanam alan in ejazaro be khodam dadam ke matlab benevisam?
chon inja page e mane? chon man mojude azadi hastam va haghe ezhare nazar daram?
khob moshkele manam hamine! age azadam chera mahkum be hamzistie mosalemat amiz ba adamaye dg shodam be name inke ensan mojudi ejtema'ist va be tanhaee.......(az in harfa ke tu ketabaye ta'limat ejtema'imun bud).
Hala ke man azadam shayad entekhabam budan ba baghie nabashe! age man nakham rikhte hich kase dgi ke mese kodame ro bebinam, bayad chikar konam? age nakham harfashuno bi chuno chera bepaziramo mese boz saramo be alamte ta'id tekun nadamo, az un taraf majbur nabasham yagheye khodamo pare konam ta baghie harfamo bepaziran, bayad kio bebinam?
Bachetar ke budam e'teraz dashtam ke chera adam khalgh shodam, delam mikhast kalagh besham(chon ham parandast va ham chon zeshte va bad seda kasi kari be karesh nadare!)
vali alan mibinam ke hamun kalaghe badbakhte dustdashtaniam majbure tu ejtema'e az no'e khodesh zendegi kone!
Pas man che adam basham, che kalagh, che ghurbaghe, ya jolbak bayad ba digaran dar ta'aamol basham!
Ki ta hala tuneste khodesho dar hali tasavor kone ke niyazmandihai dare ke baraye haleshun niyazi be kasi nadare, yani khodesh ba khodeshe o bas!
Man kheili sa'i kardam in tasavoro bekonam, dar in halat bayad niyazhaye hamishegito berizi dur, va takhayoleto baraye tolide niyazhaye bedune niyaz be kasi, fa'al koni.
Bikhod talash nakonin, va montazere zadane mesal az tarafe man ham nabashin, chon gheire ghabele tasavore. mesle inke ye ye bufalo bekhad ba ghashogh ghaza bokhore, aslan nadide, age ham dide darkesh nakarde ke in ghashoghe, ke hala bekhad tasavoresh kone. chizi ke vasash mafhum nadare va dar natije vojud nadare ro chetor tasavor kone?!
In hamin ghaziyeye mast, vaghti esteghlal az jame'e ro nmeitunim azash darki dashte bashim chetor mitunim tasavoresh konim?!
Fekr konam man hichvaght be javabam naresam. yani migin soale maskharei az khodam porsidam?!......
zardalooo